Nevertheless I Went Forth

Clueless much?

I am.

I have trained as an herbologist in past years, and learned some things about energy medicine and healing. I’ve Dr. Mom-ed all of my children as they grew up, especially those who seemed to have difficult reactions to standardized Western medicine. We’ve worked through some tough stuff, my family and I. One area that’s always been challenging for me, though, is Dr. Mom-ing myself. I get mixed results. This time through bronchitis has really flummoxed me. I’ve even faced my concerns about standard medicine – over, and over, and over. I hope this latest round of medication will take care of it, but right now I honestly can’t tell.

Reading today about Nephi moving forward as best he could, in spite of being clueless initially, really hit home for me. That feeling-your-way-forward-through-the-fog sensation makes you learn to pay closer attention to all the other information coming in through your other senses, especially what your gut tells you. That gut-sense, usually for me, that’s the Holy Spirit guiding me, one step at a time. I often can’t explain it, but I have learned to trust it. Right now I’d love to have a little more of it. 😏

This segment of the Book of Mormon has had me evaluating myself pretty intensely. Having the realization that sometimes God needs us to do the thing that we fear or dread the most in order to serve him faithfully made me stop and think. I currently have been asked to do a job in our church that has aspects that bring up such a sense of dread, it’s been difficult to move forward.

But God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, and love, and of a sound mind. (2 Tim. 1:7)

I guess I need to embrace my fear, again.

Is there something that God has called you to do that you fear or dread?


    • I don’t have a new calling, really. I’m a temple and family history consultant and have just felt intimidated by my weaknesses and fears, and what I perceive other people’s expectations to be. I’m actually not bad at it if I focus on my strengths, but sometimes I look away from the mark and freak out a little. Fortunately, Mr Hot Stuff is good at talking me off the ledge when I get like that. I have to remind myself that I don’t have to be good at everything. Lift where you stand, right?


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