From a year ago: Tue, July 11, 2017 – Am I learning how to never be weary of good works? Some days I go to bed so tired and wishing for a break. Some days I just want to say, “No, I don’t want want to go to that meeting. I don’t want to cook an extra meal. I don’t want to make phone calls to people I barely know.” I’m sometimes just so tired. Is this okay? Is this different than being weary of good works? Where is the line?
I wrote these words almost a year ago. I could not even imagine then how sick I really was, although I knew I was sick, or how much it was affecting everything I did. I am astonished at how much I was actually accomplishing at the time. Oh, the difference one good surgery and a year can make!
I appreciate my health so much more now than I ever have. I feel like my recovery from the parathyroid tumor is still continuing. I don’t feel like I am all the way “there” yet, but I am able to do so much more than I could do for so long. I am so grateful for my second chance! I exercise almost every day – walking/sprinting about 3.5 miles a day and rowing about 1.25 miles a day also, and it feels so good to be able to do it! I’ve also rediscovered the importance of daily meditation. What a big difference it can make!
Also, I’m learning that I MUST guard my health carefully, almost jealously, and reserve the time I need to do those things, because without it I cannot give or serve others in the way I want to. I am learning that sometimes I have to let others sacrifice while I take care of myself, so that I can be there for them when they truly need me. And that’s a good thing. For all of us.
I don’t have to give better service. I don’t have to give the best service. Serving others is not a comparison game. I only need to give good service, and sometimes I need to give that service to myself before I can do it for anyone else.
One of God’s greatest gifts to us is our body. We have a responsibility to do our best to care for it. Sometimes that means accepting our physical limitations, and sometimes it means stretching them. I can only do so wisely when I include God in the decision process.
33 Preach unto them repentance, and faith on the Lord Jesus Christ; teach them to humble themselves and to be meek and lowly in heart; teach them to withstand every temptation of the devil, with their faith on the Lord Jesus Christ. 34 Teach them to never be weary of good works, but to be meek and lowly in heart; for such shall find rest to their souls. Alma 37:33–34 https://www.lds.org/scriptures/bofm/alma/37?verse=33-34&lang=eng#p33