Here is a dumb thing I’ve noticed about myself. No matter how much I know that studying my scriptures every day helps me be more discerning and productive, I will still sometimes put it off, or mentally resist doing it. Why is that? Those days I have to force myself to just start reading. It helps me so much that I have friends who help me to be accountable to actually do it, even if I’ve put it off until the very limits of my day. I’d hate to think of where I’d be without their support these last few years.
Today I read in Alma 24 of the Book of Mormon.
What a heart-rending chapter this is. So many of the Lamanites had repented and taken a vow to never again use their swords and weapons on others, but those of the Lamanites who were led by Nephites who had left the church and the people of Nephi, were hardened in their hearts and commenced a wholesale slaughter of those who had taken that vow. It was such a scene of wanton carnage that it pierced the hearts of many of the Lamanites who were engaged in the slaughter to the point that many of them also repented on the spot. But those Nephites who had once known, but chose to rebel against the gospel, were only more hardened by this.
“30 And thus we can plainly discern, that after a people have been once enlightened by the Spirit of God, and have had great knowledge of things pertaining to righteousness, and then have fallen away into sin and transgression, they become more hardened, and thus their state becomes worse than though they had never known these things.”